When I have Fears That I May Cease to Be
By John Keats
When I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has gleaned my teeming brain,
Before high-pilèd books, in charactery,
Hold like rich garners the full ripened grain;
When I behold, upon the night’s starred face,
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And think that I may never live to trace
Their shadows with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour,
That I shall never look upon thee more,
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think
Till love and fame to nothingness do sink.
港西人譯版：
我擔心我可能會在紙筆
完全接到我的靈感湧泉之前，
在一堆空乏詩想的紙本
收割靈感種出的農作物之前，就去世；
當我看到，在夜晚星光的閃爍，
巨大陰雲象徵着宏偉的故事，
它們並認為我可能永遠無法活著
用具創造魔力的手追蹤他們的影子；
我感覺，那個一小時便消失的漂亮女子，
我將永遠不可注視你，
再也不能享受深層的愛 — 在岸上
在這廣闊的世界裡我獨自一人思考
直到愛情和名譽都沉入虛無。
Posthumous portrait of Keats by William Hilton, National Portrait Gallery, London (c. 1822)
When I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has gleaned my teeming brain,
Before high-pilèd books, in charactery,
Hold like rich garners the full ripened grain;
注解:
1) I may cease to be：I may die
2) glean：gather information in small amounts with difficulty; gather after harvest [暗示John Keats有很多想法和靈感(teeming brain)但無法輕易用紙筆詩句記錄]
3) teeming：raining heavily
4) Hold v. 跟high-pilèd books n.
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And think that I may never live to trace
Their shadows with the magic hand of chance;
注解：
1) symbols: 名詞來的
2) a high romance ：有如中世紀騎士、英雄般的人生故事；一段豐收的愛情
3) the magic hand of chance：被機遇賦予魔法的雙手（詩人可以有靈感寫詩）
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour,
That I shall never look upon thee more,
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think
Till love and fame to nothingness do sink.
注解：
1) fair creature of an hour: 1814年，一個漂亮女子Keats在Vauxhall Gardens見到的。Keats在1818年甚至為她寫了一首十四行詩 To a Lady Seen for a Few Moments at Vauxhall
2) thee: 1)提及的那個漂亮女子
3) the faery power of unreflecting love: 表面感覺不到的愛；不膚淺的愛
4) the shore of the wide world: 世界的最終海岸（ 生與死的邊際）
領悟：人死如燈滅，再多的偉績也無法流過沙漏，只可卡在上端。Keats也有對死亡的恐懼。他害怕1）無法有英雄史詩般的人生經歷，2）無法再愛喜歡的人。人生令詩人有好多靈感；同時間，人生的寬廣(wide world)，令詩人的孤獨感更為突出。最後，我們都站在彼岸，為了死後的世界等待着 — 自己一個人等待着。
另外，我很喜歡Huge cloudy為英雄傳說故事作形容。Huge突出了英雄故事有如雲霧般，覆蓋整個社會，每人都會說到他們。glean同teeming brain的對比展示出詩人靈感大爆發的同時，筆滴不出墨了—就是寫不出來。你應該會有同感吧？
這篇我打算拍片跟大家分享，有很多的細節在這裡不便解說。大家等等我~
下篇再見~